Dear Baby Doll,
It has been a little over three months since you came in to our lives. Everyday has been a pure blessing. Your brothers and Papa are deeply smitten by your sweetness. Everyone we meet stops to look at you, and most of the time, you charm them with one of your blissful gummy smile.
Today we got your little ears pierced. My heart ached as you cried, trying to decide what had just happened. My ears were pierced when I was your age. I sported fancy little diamonds which you will be wearing as soon as your precious little ears have healed. I wore them for years and I am so happy you will too.
For the last three months, you have filled our lives with love and pride that isn’t quite describable. I savour every one of your spit-bubble smiles and sweet little noises. Everyday, your little legs get stronger. You try to stand on my thighs and look at me proudly. I smile and laugh in pure joy. Watching you grow has been the greatest blessing. You seem to think that a fly marrying a bumblebee is the funniest. The more I sing it, the bigger the smiles get!
When I pick you up and you get close to me, I take a big breath and smell your little head. The sweet scent of Ivory Snow, drool and freshly washed hair fill my heart with happiness. Then you take a breath and open your mouth wide. Latching on my shoulder, my cheek or my mouth, if I try to kiss your lips. You keep looking for milk. Nature is fascinating. I remember watching the little House Finch babies open their mouths as Mama Finch landed on the nest. Although much cuter, your little mouth always seem open when you are close to me.
God, in his magnificent ways, has given me the opportunity to mother you, a blessing, but also the ability to nourish you. You could survive for months, with only what I have to offer you. What an incredible gift from God!
I looked at you today, with shiny jewels in your ears and couldn’t help but dream about a day when you will try on my jewelry and play dress up. Or the day you want to borrow my earrings to go to school.
With all the gifts God has given our family, I can only pray.
I pray that you grow healthy and strong.
I pray that you accept and follow Jesus and keep Him close to your heart.
I pray that you are able to LOVE. Love yourself, love others, give back to the world and be a servant of Christ.
I pray that your little heart never gets broken. I understand that you and I will not always agree but I pray that you never cease to know how much I love you and how much you mean to me, to everyone who knows your heart.
I pray that, when it is time to choose a man, you will look up to your Papa and remember what a wonderful man he is. How great he has been to me, to you and to our family. I pray that you look for someone just like him.
You are surrounded by strong willed women and I pray that you are able to listen to them, have compassion and believe in yourself. You can do anything through Him.
I pray that God gives me the tools to help you grow strong and beautiful, inside and out.
My baby girl, watching you, holding you, nursing you, caring for you and loving you is one of my greatest joy. I am overwhelmed having you as my daughter. I thank God every day for the gift of a little girl.
You are special. You are beautiful. You are a child of God.
I love you so much! You are loved by many.
Maman
Living Whole 